Sunday, November 2, 2008

Epitome

Well, Hmm...it has been a bit since I have blogged I guess, and things have been kind of a whirlwind. After being hospitalized last weekend and having to return home for a few days for a medical issue, I have reached some realizations.
I have always been the type who has strived to be the best at everything that I try. In school, I like to have the answers, in dance I like having the steps right, in gymnastics I like being able to land the trick just perfectly. I've always been very self-driven. Being this way has been beneficial, but it has also been a burden. When I don't have the answers, or get the steps right, or land the trick right, I'm very hard on myself and wonder what my "problem" is.
Through being sick, I have had to learn the hard lesson that things are not always pristine and perfect. Sometimes, there is not a clear answer. I have had to come to terms with this, and the only thing that has kept me sane through it all is knowing that God has a plan. It has been said that your greatest test becomes your testimony. I can only hope that the Lord has put me through all of this as a means to train me for the amazing plans that he has in store. This is the first time in my life I have looked at being sick as a positive thing. It is also the first time I have felt called to do something. I want to be able to help others who struggle with the same thing that I am. It takes going through something to truly understand it.
So...I'm just here to say that when adults always told us how important our health is, it was true. As young people, it's hard for us to understand that, but you can't very well thrive in school or sports or whatever if you're laying in a hospital bed or 6 feet under...
Take care!!! Take it from someone who's paying an exspensive price!!